I have realized that throughout my life, I have tried to be what I guess others consider normal. I am, for all intents and purpose, definitely NOT normal.
I have fought this issue my entire life. From the way I look to the way I speak, from the way I write and the music I listen to, I am officially one of the Misfit Toys. I don’t look like other people. I don’t dress like other people. I don’t listen to – or particularly like – certain genres of music that has made me all but outcast from others for years. For years, I tried to work my way toward the middle, tried to blend. I cloistered myself in misery when I failed, feeling ostracized from whole cities full of people. No one really got me. I mean, doesn’t everyone obsess about the difference between cerulean and Wedgwood blue? Evidently not.
As of the past year or so, I’ve released that quest for normality. I’ve become incredibly comfortable that I have no idea what “normal” means and I actually don’t want to know. I love the unusual, I seek out things that aren’t comfortable. I don’t know how to blend, really. I just know how to be myself, speak my mind, listen to hard rock, write in my own voice and speak my truth. Once I decided to let my freak flag fly over The Country of Me, I cannot tell you how many more people I’ve found who are just like me. We’re different and we’re beautiful because of it. It’s a new country – the Republic of Not Normal.
Don’t be like the rest of them. Explore your spirit and stand out there on your own red carpet in something that’s really YOU. Let your freak flag fly and be free in your individuality. Who cares if you like to wear your boyfriend’s boxer shorts while snacking on bagels in softening gloves? Do it! Be happy. Be yourself. Be an individual.
And to celebrate this, we’re going to celebrate my all-time favorite kindred freak, the Bee Girl in the Blind Melon video, “No Rain.” Take a note from her book: “bee” an individual.