I have been looking forward to today so much. Oh, you have no idea.
Because I’m tired. Wow, am I tired. I did the math on what I’ve done work-wise for clients over the past few weeks. It came out to the following metrics:
- 35 separate articles
- 22 interviews
- 25 hours of interview transcription (because some of those interviews were looooooonnnnnngggg)
- 2 proposals
- 15 hours of research
Oh, and I was away last weekend for the American Academy of Dermatology conference, which was MIND BLOWING and AMAZING. I have so much to tell you and so many questions to answer.
But, golly, am I tired. Like, my brain is broken. I have no creativity or ideas left. I can barely spell my own name.
Also, I’m getting that feeling again, that feeling I got all those years ago when I left corporate America to become a writer; that smothered, trapped, I-only-live-to-pay-bills feeling. I really, really dislike that feeling. I truly do. I’ve been thinking a lot between bouts of heavy-duty transcriptions and articles that I miss exploring and just getting out and remembering what it was like to be free.
And then it occurred to me that I was doing this all wrong. ALL wrong. I work for myself. Why not take Friday off? I mean, I could work to get “ahead” on things, but I know that I’m going to spend all day Saturday and Sunday working on things for this site (Finally, right? Because that would be nice.) I won’t have the weekend to relax, so why not just take the day to do some exploring? Maybe I’ll fall in love with New York again. Perhaps I’ll fall in love with myself again.
Because I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m pretty pissed at myself for letting things get this far out of whack. I need to take myself out on a date, bring some flowers, and apologize. Maybe throw in some of that I’ll-do-better-I-promise language I seem to remember working (sometimes.) But I feel odd talking about fashion and beauty and having the lifestyle you want when I know that I’m not really living that way right now. It’s time to take a day to just relax, enjoy the weather, and think about what I want to do next.
So, today is Running Away Day. I’m camped out here at the Gansevoort Park Avenue for a brief bit, just relaxing. I have no idea where I’m going next. That’s the most exciting thing ever. I have NO IDEA. But I have my camera, some snacks, comfy shoes, sunglasses, and an open mind.
Today, I am taking myself on a date. I’m going to take a long, leisurely look at the world and get into some great conversations about what I want to do and where I want to go. It’s time to plan the next big step. I’ll report what I find (and all those awesome tips from the AAD Conference I know you’re dying to hear/I am dying to tell you about) starting Monday morning.
In the meantime, if you’re feeling overwhelmed by life, tired, and in need of a change of scenery, why not join me? Not literally, but go for a walk. Take yourself on a date. Get to know yourself a little better, and see where life takes you. It might be the 24 hours that changes everything. I think today might be that kind of day for me.